I am starting to figure out how... after 60 years of groping in the dark and getting up many times from unsure footing!

My treasure map is brittle and torn around the edges.  I lost my way following it many times but somehow led me back to the spot.

Maybe I thought I wanted to be somewhere else but this thing about growing older is making me see more!  Ironic but the eyes are not even seeing well around this time of the season but I am seeing more.

I am seeing more potential.  HEDCen will bloom some more and fruit a lot lot more!
More flowers, more birds in my garden.
More adventures to fill my spirit.
More grandchildren.
More laughter and less guilt.

60 is no joke but yes, it's got perks!!  Very, very nice perks!

I thought

the babies will now be Ate and Kuya

It has been years it seems.
Now that I visit, it feels like I am a stranger discovering things on pages that I wrote.

So many things have happened.
I thought they were the same story repeatedly happening to me.

There were no words for a long time.
I thought I was a wretch and my days were extraordinarily ordinary.

What was I up to?
I thought I was not doing anything because I was working.
Picking my nose and the pieces of my life peppered with many beginnings.

I thought I did not know how to write all these
because there was nothing to write.
but as I tried to grasp in words the moments that fleeted by

I thought that I have to write again.

To write about my abundant blessings is making me fizzy inside.
Here's why.

the babies are growing.  they are incessantly talking and learning.
the toddlers are tall and fat and they are very funny and very sensitive.
there are new additions to the brood.  a baby girl waiting to be born anytime.
and another on the way in October!

So much to write about I realize now, while Kiera is teaching Golda how to keep vigil at night.