There are layers they say, that build up around who you are as you live life, gain experience, suffer loss, disapointments, regrets and fears. I am not sure if you turn into something like a pearl but the process is very much the same in my opinion. The irritant starts the layers that would envelop it in much the same way again as how one comes up with a cough- to finally expectorate, regurgitate or expel!
How we wish that this process when it happens to us, would turn us into pearls, but instead it turns us into someone lackluster, full of fats around every conceivable part of our human body. This form of cushioning helps us to survive but also, eventually... we die.
If it is not in quantifiable volume, it is the dimensionless anger, spite, envy, wrath, rage, self-pity. fear, disgust, deception in different degrees, single or combined that wrap around a body in catatonic state. Either way, it makes us fat.
Other people go through an opposite process. Pared and skinned. Every layer melts, wilts or shrivels. The idea is to expunge the entire body - where the negative energy attaches.
Another gruesome scenario is the way our essence is blurred by influences of those who are around us or by our own expectations of ourselves. In order to survive, layers and layers of masks or plaque build up to deny the painful truth. Denial like procrastination is laziness in the highest degree.
the law of inertia
We allow ourselves to gather moss like a stone in coma, unless someone kicks us.
Then we are tossed and thrown and we hit the ground many times, bouncing till we stop.
"For every action, there is an opposite reaction."
Someone, the Great Force has many ways of waking us up from our stupor. Everything is on automatic mode when the world with its universe was created. The law of nature is a system that automatically kicks in once something is pushed.
This is what I call realization. Realization happens in ways not always as fabulous as when Prince Charming brings the glass slippers to Cinderella or when the Prince kisses Aurora. Sometimes one has to kiss an ugly toad to realize that it is handsome after all or dance with the beast to know that she is dancing with one! Some realizations happen when faced with death or sickness. Loss in all its meaning and in different circumstances, can be a powerful trigger but it can also bring dis-ease or discomfort that makes one sabotage all his awesome plans.
Such is life's paradoxes. These can happen to some or to just one person. One thing may be true to some but not to others. Important is we keep trying but know when we have to try something else. I have never succeeded in raising African violets nor in growing lavender and have not lost the last 10 pounds that will make me look good in my 250 peso Alexander McQueen. I have thought in my younger days that someday, I will be interviewed by Oprah but I changed my mind...
So today, I got myself a cat. After all these musings, that's what I did. I got myself a cat and we are communicating. It is already starting to call me Em-mmawww!
